How
is it we see sin reigning both within us and around us? Is it that GodÕs
promise is not true, or is it that His grace has grown weak? Neither the one
nor the other! ÒFor the promises of God in Him are yea and amenÓ (2 Cor 1:20)
and he in whom is grace Òcan do all things through Jesus Christ who
strengthensÓ him (Phil 4:13). The reason for this pitiful sight is not in God
but in ourselves, in that we, from our side, fail to apply the measures
necessary for us and do not use as we ought the means decreed for us. The
doctor is not guilty of a failure to heal when the patient does not obey his
directions and makes no use of the medicine prescribed for him to take.
He
who does not wrestle with sin does not conquer it; he who does not conquer it
falls into sin and abides in it. On the contrary, abundant help is always
prepared for him who opposes sin and compels himself towards good. Strengthened
by it, he may always turn from evil and do good—though not without
effort. Consequently, our main business is the struggle with sin. One
struggling must have weapons and then must know against whom to do battle and
how to do battle.
The
weapons against sin are the following: prayer, attending church, thorough
obedience, the reading of GodÕs Word and of the holy Fathers, sober attention
to oneself, bodily labor, vigil, prostrations and bows, solitude, control of
feelings, abstinence, fasting. All these weapons flow out of the nature of the
struggle itself, and all of them are essentially necessary in the spiritual
battle.
But
let us assume that someone has armed himself with them all—has he done
everything? No, it is still needful to employ them and that not any which way
but expediently: otherwise they will not bring him their full effect. One
person, for example, undertakes to read spiritual things—and reads and
reads unto weariness—but without clarifying for himself beforehand why he
needed to do this and what he needed to try to attain by these efforts. Still
another undertakes fasting and fasts without pity for himself to the depletion
of his strength, but he did not determine for himself why precisely he needed
to fast and in what measure and what to keep sight of in it. I present these
examples not to give grounds to judge unfavorably the indicated weapons, but in
order to show that ill-considered action with them and failure to direct them
towards the necessary goal deprives them of their inherent power—the
conquest of sin.
Precisely
how one must operate, I shall briefly define. It will not do to set the goal of
Christian armament as acquiring the arms themselves: it will not do to set the
goal of fasting as just fasting, the goal of solitude as just in being alone,
the goal of prostrations in just doing prostrations. The purpose of all this
should be internal to identify and conquer the sin living in us.
What
is this Òsin living in usÓ? Self-love, with the whole horde of passions flowing
from it. Self-love is the root from which grow pride, self-interest, and
sensuality. These are the main trunks of the tree of sin. From them sprout the
offshoots––vainglory, hatred, envy, anger, despair, lust. Without
these passions, we would always act correctly, living according to the
commandments of God without any difficulty. Why, for example, does a blacksmith
give short measure or exact an excessive price? From greed: without greed, he
would not act so. Why do people quarrel and even fight duels? From anger:
without anger, all matters would be settled peacefully. Why does one person do
evil to another? From hatred or envy: without these passions, evil deeds would
not be. In a word, if it were not for the passions in us, we all would live
holy and undefiled, in peace and love, in mutual assistance and help for one
another. Consequently, the passions are our main enemies. We must overcome them
particularly and direct against them all our martial spiritual strength, all
our spiritual armament. If we will not do this, then we labor in vain and with
all these weapons we shall gain no success whatsoever; we shall bear the weight
of the weapons, but we shall not receive the crown of victory. Moreover, we may
wound ourselves with these weapons. From this may be drawn the general
conclusion: take all the spiritual weapons and use them courageously and
vigilantly; do not use them aimlessly but rather with a set purpose, directing
them against the passion definitely known to you and attacking you.
Now
I shall briefly indicate how one must struggle, how to conduct battle and
employ spiritual weapons to good effect.
1.
Do not imagine you can wage war against the whole horde of passions—you
will not be able to cope--but arm yourself each time against that passion
warring against you. If pride tries to conquer, do battle with pride; if anger,
do battle with anger; if envy, do battle with envy. Whatever enemy is before
you, smite that enemy and direct all your martial strength and all your
attention against it. If you set out to chase other foes, then this one will
attack from the flank or rear and the victory will be lost.
2.
Hasten to separate yourself from the enemy and oppose yourself to him and him
to yourself. In spiritual battle, it is not as it is in physical [perceptible
to senses] where the enemy stands visibly against you. In spiritual battle, you
and your enemy are both in one soul and one heart. All our trouble stems from
the fact that we do not know how to separate ourselves from the enemy and
disunite ourselves from him; we think that the passionate movements disturbing
us is, in fact, us—our nature—and we hurry to satisfy it. But this
is not our nature and not us, but our enemy. This error is the source of all
our falls into sin and wrong actions. If only at the first moments of an attack
we succeeded in separating the passion from ourselves, then we would aim not to
satisfy it but to stand against it.
3.
Having separated the passion troubling you from yourself and having
acknowledged it to be your enemy, begin to war against it, to fight it, taking
up one weapon after another until the passion flees or hides from you or until
the soul finds peace. Fast, pray, read, meditate, be alone, visit your
spiritual father, go to church, make prostrations at home—in a word, make
use of every useful weapon that you have in order to overcome the foe.
Sometimes the passion hides itself at once, sometimes it struggles
long—our task is not to weaken but to endure in bearing up under the
weight of the martial podvig until the soul has regained complete peace.
4.
The enemy is driven off, the passion is extinguished, the soul has found peace,
but this still does not mean that either this or another passion was defeated
unto death—no, it has only
concealed itself and gone away for a time, though it was defeated. Give it a
new situation, and it will immediately arise, although not with its former
strength. You overcame the passion in a familiar situation, but it will find
thousands of such situations and will begin again the struggle and call you out
to battle. This means that a Christian should never lay aside his arms; he is a
permanent warrior who must always be ready for battle. Thus in this sense it is
said: ÒHe who endures to the end will be savedÓ (Matthew 10:22).
Here
is the whole program of battle! Having identified your enemy in the passion
attacking you at this moment, begin to defeat it with your weapons, using first
one, then another, while you drive it away. Having driven it off, stop and look
and expect another attack from one side or another by any passion. When it
attacks, deal with it as you did with the former passion with which you did
battle and which by GodÕs mercy you defeated. So do each day, each hour, and
each minute.
But
when does it end? One cannot determine this. It may only be said that the more
vigilantly a Christian fights and does not give in to any passionate attraction
the more quickly the passions in him will begin to weaken, and to that degree,
as the unrelenting war goes on, peace and quiet begin to be established in the soul. With the passage of time,
it arrives at a quiet and peaceful state of order in which, as in the stillness
of midnight, a deep silence will begin to reign, a sign that enemies have been
driven far away or put in their place.
Help
us all, O Lord, to receive such good!
Translated
by Fr. Justin Brian Frederick
From
Sotsertsanie and Rasmyshlenie, pp. 130-137